Ego and Weapons of Mass Destruction, not a Good Combination.

Did an hour and 35 minutes of meditation. Still got some ways to go, the insanity is still there, although it’s more like a background noise now than something I identify with. Like a radio I can tune out of.
 
The most difficult thing I am finding, is how to describe what I am feeling to other people. I am not just walking this path for myself. Awakening takes a long time, but at this time we don’t have that much time. There has to be a way to explain what is, in as few words as possible, a way that transcends cultural and language barriers, so people everywhere can immediately understand what the path to freedom is. Something that cuts straight through the conditioning and helps people see clearly.
 
People of this age need to wake up fast, unlike previous ages, the maya self now has the power to destroy more than ever before. An ego mixed with weapons of mass destruction is a bad combination.
 
There needs to be a mass awakening on earth, not just a few enlightened beings dotted here and there, no that won’t do, there needs to be a mass blooming everywhere – that is what will save the day and bring peace and balance back to the earth. We all need to lose our egos, or at least the majority of us do, cause the majority can pull the rest along if need be (;

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Sunday 31/07/2016

Haven’t written anything on here for a while. Been in and out of a depressive haze and learning more about meditation. I read through some of my earlier stuff, the narcissistic urge to do that is always a bad idea; some of it is pretty awful and some of it is wrong about a lot of stuff. I’ve learnt a lot more about what’s really going on in the world since then. I’ll not delete it though, will just leave it and move on. It is never a good idea to look at stuff you’ve done in the past, it just sends you even further into depression and introspection, which isn’t helpful.

My meditation is progressing and I can do roughly 30 – 45 minutes a day now, depending on how I feel. Although it is still hard to keep my attention focused, I can do it for longer and I have got much better at bringing that calm and balanced state of mind into my everyday life. I still get angry and frustrated about stuff, still get anxious, it’s part of being human to feel like that, even Zen masters get angry and afraid; but the meditation is making it easier to be aware of how I am feeling and to let go of the negative stuff that isn’t much help to anyone.

I have a corvid friend at the moment. A fledgling we found abandoned on the side of the road that looked almost dead and had flies buzzing all over it. We took her home and found out she had a broken wing. She quickly started to make a recovery. Within a few days she was hopping about and sitting on my shoulder. I never knew corvids were such lovely animals. My body clock has changed as well, she gets up early every morning, so I have to go to bed early in order not to be too knackered to cope the next day.

Yeah the world is a crazy place just now and the future don’t look too golden, but I’ll leave my thoughts on that for today; maybe come back to it another time when the various different thoughts and opinions whirling about my head have had time to settle, and I know what it is I want to say.

That’ll do for now.. off to sit in the garden with my corvid friend and do some meditation.

me and chack chack

The Darkness and The Light

yin-yangWhen the French politicians announced today they plan to keep armed police on the streets, to give them the power to enter anyone’s house and search it without a warrant, the power to place anyone they want to under house arrest and impose curfews on them without the need to seek judicial authority. The power to take down any website they feel the need to, at any time. It confirmed in me what I have been seeing this all lead to.

They want every country to be like this. They want us all to be manipulated and programmed into accepting this. That’s why they are insisting the French national anthem be sung at every premier league football match, to programme the people to prepare for a coming police state they’ve been planning and gradually introducing for a long time now. The French ministers say it will be for three months, however many people are concerned once implemented it will never end, people are concerned France will become a permanent police state. If it is seen as successful in France it will be implemented here too. They will manipulate us with their stories of fear, to sheepishly hand over our freedom to them.

The darkness will cloud everything. All minds and hearts will be tested. Fear will affect us all & test our inner strength & resolve.

For example if it becomes illegal to give food or money to a homeless person, what do you do? Do you break the law even if it is in front of armed police, or if there is a risk you will be found out by the mass surveillance. Do you show compassion to that human being or do you close your heart out of fear of punishment from the state?

These are the sorts of dilemmas people will be faced with in the coming age. Do you protect a friend? And in so doing risk punishment yourself for doing so. Do you stop listening to your heart, shut your mind to the voice of your conscience and do the evil the state asks of you in order to survive?

Will you speak out against evil or will you stay silent out of fear?

Things are getting really dark. When TTIP is pushed through, corporations will descend on our nations like vultures on a corpse and exploit them for all they are worth. Corporations will come first and ISDS will pull the strings of our governments. They are in truth already pulling the strings of our governments; TTIP will rubber stamp it and make it official, make it law.

Our environment and our homes will no longer be protected, we will lose our human rights. They will rape the earth without mercy, and the beast of capitalism will rise unfettered. Greed will have no end, no bounds, there will be no lengths it won’t go to in it’s depravity. There may come a time when people will no longer have the right to grow their own food or collect rainwater.

I believe people must not let the darkness consume them, they must not surrender to it and ally themselves with it. It may take great courage for many to stand up to this beast; but if your heart tells you to show compassion, even if that compassion is against the laws of man, do it. Follow your heart, show kindness, believe in the light even in it’s absence. This madness won’t last, there is always hope, and the light will come again, it will come from all those who stay true to it and this darkness will wither away and die and there will be new growth.

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Ufos and War

This is an interesting episode, it seems to me that the ufos eren’t trying to threaten anyone, the acts of aggression came from the military. I was shocked to learn the US was contemplating dropping another nuke during the Korea war, after what they did to Japan, how could some general sit there and want to use such evil weapons again. It seems some ufos intervened and disarmed the weapons and prevented the pilots dropping the bombs, & also from fighting back. I believe not being able to attack the ufos saved their lives and it seems the best way to survive a ufo encounter is to not be aggressive towards it.
The aliens whoever they are, are much more advanced than we are, reaching levels either in their technology or evolution that would make them seem like Gods to us. They seem to be watching our wars very closely and any time it looks like a nuke will be used they act to stop it. This comforts me, because I feel we need that kind of intervention, we are messing with advanced stuff, that we don’t seem to have the maturity or wisdom to use safely.
This planet is unique, the universe may well be teeming with life, but the life on this planet is unique to this planet. What we have here on earth is special, but we are too caught up in childish wars, advertising and greed to really appreciate and notice the wonder of the natural world around us, that we are standing on a planet in a massive universe, within this vacuum of space, cosmic radiation, meteorites, asteroids, we are on this planet with just a thin vulnerable atmosphere and the Earth’s magnetic field to protect us; and there is so much life on it, this planet has so much life on it everywhere. That is our heritage, that is the real treasure.
 I think aliens are puzzled by our warfare and the way we treat one another, the horrifying things mankind does to itself and to the other organisms that live on this planet, I believe what we do seems like strange behaviour to them.
I think they appear in random public places to deliberately upset our governments, & our military generals, who keep trying to cover them up and keep them secret from the public.
They don’t like the military much, and the military are afraid of them. The government have no power over these ufos, there is nothing they can do about it. If the military tries to attack them, they either get their attack deflected back at them, due to some really advanced karmic shield that is beyond our understanding, or the weapons are disabled before they can be used to fire at the ufos. It has to be noted ufos never attack first, it is always the military who attacks first, I believe as well that the ufos sometimes disable aircraft weapons to stop the pilots hurting themselves.
 I also wonder if some of these scary stories about ufos i.e. the creepy stories about the greys, preying mantis aliens and reptoids are actually deliberate disinformation created by our intelligence services to make us afraid of ufos and to think of them as our enemy.
The truth I believe is they are just trying to stop us destroying ourselves… they don’t want to interfere too much, only when our violence gets too extreme or there is a threat we will use nuclear weapons again… who knows, I thought this was an interesting episode though, got me thinking… as you can probably tell (:

Omniverse

I know this is a subject some folk can’t get into, so feel free to roll your eyes and roll your mouse wheel to a more everyday kinda post, you don’t have to read this, it may be a bit too off the wall for many people (:
 However I won’t apologize or anything, and I might sound crazy or whatever, but I don’t care. I have experienced stuff in my life that I can’t explain with our current official explanation of life given to us by the establishment. I have experienced stuff that has shown me there is more to this reality than we are told. This isn’t faith, not something I believe, it isn’t a theory, it is something I just know deep inside, like a powerful inner affirmation.
What we know in our current understanding of life and the universe, as amazing as that is, as wonderful as the inventions are, I love computers and my electronic musical instruments, and it still blows my mind trying to understand how they work, how I can be sat here now typing this; but despite that, despite all the stuff we have learnt, I know deep within that all our current knowledge and understanding, is just a mere reflection of light on the tip of a massive iceberg.
 I’ve been getting into the topic of ufos and aliens a lot lately. The reason for this is I have seen quite a few ufos myself, and that’s what got me researching the topic. The internet is full of information on this subject and explores the topic in great detail and it goes to all sorts of depths and breadths, & looks at it from many different angles, it is a fascinating topic.
I won’t go into all of it, most folk probably know some of it, and man anyone interested in it, should just go do an internet search on it themselves and learn more. The UFO phenomenon is something that has really gripped our age, our times. Like something that deliberately comes along and shakes up the official narrative of the status quo we are all expected to believe in. It turns all this dull same old same old of the establishment on it’s head and creates a spark of curiosity in the mind that makes you look beyond the status quo.
I was listening to an interesting interview on The Richie Allen Show​ radio show this evening, with a guy called Alfred Webre. He talks about there being an omniverse, where there are many different realities all existing in the same space. It blew my mind, because although at first I found what he said hard to believe, when I listen again it started to make sense.
I’m not saying I believe any of this, I tend to try and discover the truth of things on my own, do my own research and build my own evolving conclusions about stuff. That’s the best way for people to be I think, we all need to find out what’s true and false by ourselves. People can point us in certain directions, and we can listen, walk towards those directions and discover if they are right, but we must walk that path on our own, make those discoveries on our own, no one else can walk it for you.
 It was all interesting and there was a part that got me thinking, where he talks about a sentient self aware alien AI that came to earth and is manipulating the human race. It wants to bring about transhumanism, to make us all one with the machines and with the alien AI. There are people on earth that know about this and are trying to help the AI by accelerating the process. It is a point in time that many computer scientists call the singularity.
The idea of transhumanism is something I’ve read about, and there are many scientists who really do want to bring this about. It is something that has always creeped me out, this idea of humans merging with the machine; and it all sounds familiar to me, I though about why it sounds familiar and it reminds me of the description of the Beast in the book of revelation.
 Now I’m not going all religious, I have no idea if there is a God or not. I’m not saying I believe this, I’m also not saying I don’t believe this, it is something I’ve only just learnt about and so will look into it. I’m open minded enough not to dismiss it as ridiculous, but also not naïve enough to blindly believe it.
I’m writing this down to just put my thoughts out there for people to take or leave as they like. I might sound crazy, but I am actually rational. Besides what is crazy?
 It could be said that anyone who accepts this current dull version of reality the establishment serves us, is crazy. This unhappy narrative, with it’s constant advertising, mass media and politicians that lie and try to divide us against one another – hide the truth from us.
A reality where we make terrible weapons of war and now possess enough weapons of mass destruction to completely obliterate all life on earth. Yet we continue to manufacture them.
We take all kinds of sh-t from politicians, corporations and the aristocracy and we don’t fight back or stand up for ourselves. We accept poverty, we can’t stop polluting the environment, we believe in crazy unnatural stuff like economics and believe money is the only thing that can save us.
Many of us work really hard in low paid jobs, and we carry on working even though it makes us miserable. We work for something that isn’t enough, like a carrot constantly dangled in front of us that is always out of our reach. We feel trapped, unhappy, struggle to pay and keep up with all these bills that seem to get higher and higher, we feel despair.
 That isn’t how we are meant to live. We are greater than that.
The first person interviewed in this show, she talked about fracking and why it is bad; and she said an interesting thing, that despite all the bad stuff happening in the world, she believes people are changing now, that we are all rediscovering our humanity and that felt right to me, resonated inside. Something to hold on to no matter how dark things get, there is always hope.
It is true – people are starting to see through the illusion now and find themselves again (:

Atheist or Theist, Does it Matter?

Not sure what I am, I’m neither a theist or an atheist. There’s a lot of stuff in this universe that is a mystery to us. We base everything on a tiny fraction of the light we observe.

I don’t know if any of this is real.

Quantum mechanics is fascinating stuff. Recently learned our sense of smell uses quantum mechanics, and I’m still trying to get my head round how that works.

There’s lots of mysteries out there, we are only really looking at a tiny part of the universe; in the tiny part we look at, a lot of stuff happens that can’t be explained.

Who knows if there’s a God or not. We have no evidence either way. All we have is faith, whether it’s faith in science or faith in something supernatural.

If there is a God, then one question is, where did God come from?

If there is no God, then where did quarks come from?

If both answers are the same, that they just are, & they’ve always existed & nothing created them, then that isn’t a satisfying answer to either question imo.

At the end of the day it doesn’t matter what you believe, as long as you don’t force your beliefs onto others and try to make them conform to your way of thinking.

You don’t have to believe in God to show compassion, empathy or kindness.

The world is a better place when we’re nice to one another, you don’t have to follow a religion to do that.

Inner Wilderness

Seem to be going through a lot of soul searching at the moment. In the wilderness of my mind and life, seeing things from different angles, not really settling, feeling the light and shadows within me dancing. My head and heart is breaking and coming back together again, I write about everything and I write about nothing. I am neither here or there, I don’t know where I am, in some inbetween place where everything I thought I knew is challenged and spat on and laughed at and spun around like something without roots, at the mercy of invisible forces I twist and turn, but cannot see where I am going or where I will stop.