Insight Meditation 10
I had a perplexing problem to try & grasp in my mind today. It could be seen as a spontaneous Zen koan because the answer isn’t clear & requires a lot of focus. It is not an easy thought to ignore, for me anyway it has scuppered my boat.
It goes something like this, I was listening to a podcast about dreams & the latest ideas in Neuro science as to what they may be. I have a very intense dream life, I find dreams have a deep impact on my waking life, the images & feelings stay with me through most of the day.
I heard a professor state that people who have brain damage to a certain area of the brain cannot dream anymore. They still have REM sleep, but no dreams. This made me feel afraid. The dream world is just a section of the brain, when that section of the brain is gone, the dreams are gone.
I then read an article which said that 98% of people feel empathy, but 2% don’t. Again due to problems with the area of the brain to do with empathy.
I guess a lot of this fits into impermanence.
Who am I? Am I really just a biological brain & nothing more?
The Buddha believed in reincarnation, but I don’t really believe in reincarnation. I would like to believe we have souls, a spirit, but there is no evidence to support this.
I feel depressed & confused.
What is the point of living if we are all going to die? All this searching for meaning when maybe there is none?
I feel like there’s something more, something beyond the material world; but that could just be my brain tricking me.
It is so hard to let go of this thought, because none of the answers I can come up with are satisfactory enough.
It really challenges me & has stopped me in my tracks.
What is the point in any of this if we cease to exist when we die?